Engaged and becoming engaged.
I awoke Sunday the 2nd of March, the Lord spoke to my heart as I was blinking while adjusting to the light and I knew it was going to happen that day. I got ready for church as I thought of how on earth I’d ask Amy to marry me. I was a lot more nervous than I first thought necessary, but at the same time excitement overtook me like an ocean tide.
We went to church and all I could think of was how and where this would all happen, not sure what to say or where I should position myself; sitting on the floor, sitting next to her, standing? As the preacher spoke on faith I was seeing how God had orchestrated this perfectly. The sermon was incredible, he taught about how faith can be hilarious as long as it is not doubtful, like Abraham and Sarah in Genesis 17:17 and 18:12. We can think something in crazy and wild and even funny, but we must keep the faith. The preacher also spoke of how funny people’s reactions are when they pray for something and it actually happens. For example when someone is ill and another prays for them and all the sudden they are healed, the praying persons reaction might be something like “oh wow!” You know? So it made me laugh ((without too much doubt)) about how I have been praying to the Lord about Amy becoming my bride and partner in life, then when I woke up and He said it was time I thought I must be crazy!
There is this great Christian band named Delirious that has this part to one of their songs where the leader say’s “can God save a nation?” with a heavy British accent. And that got me to thinking that day of engagement; “can God call two young people to marry and become one?” Then as the signs would pour in I knew that after months of praying and communicating with counsel that this was real and God was pleased to see it come at this time. After church I took Amy to the prayer chapel and asked her to be my wife and life partner with the help of well-spoken words of love and an extremely well placed interruption from some old lady who couldn’t tell we were in the middle of something… Love is great…
So as I have gone on these past two weeks I have been taken to newer levels of faith, as I am required. I have been longing to be back in the position where it took the faith to get engaged; now I am required to have faith to actually get married! I spoke with a man at lunch this week about how the Lord is showing me that He trusts me to follow him with wisdom and assurance, but I still feel unable or like I have been making mistakes. In his wisdom the gentleman told me of how it is incredible how far the Lord takes us without us moving very far. In my case I simply asked a young woman to marry me and already I have been learning so much about life and love and my role in Christ, it’s been such a spiritual journey. Hebrews 11:1-2 say’s “ 1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.” I have found a newer hope in Christ through his faithfulness in my life. With this I have seen how becoming engaged to Amy has blessed me in being engaged with the Father.
This is why I live.